Day 1

10 Facts about me..

1. Born in Winnipeg, Manitoba first generation Canadian
2. I love with all my heart, you get 100% even on my bad days :)
3. I will try most things once- unless its something I am truly scared of..and even then..
4. don't tell me I can't do something.. cuz I will prove you wrong.. (Leo in me)
5. I have been told I have a good sense of humour
6. You can tell alot about me by looking into my eyes
7. I love animals.. yes even lizards that scare the heck out of me
8. money doesnt make me rich..my life does
9. I am me.. love me or leave me
10. I also have been told my laugh is contagious...
oh .. and..
11. I am a cougar.. and I can roar... LMAO

30 Day Challenge

30 Day Challenge
Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show

Day 04 - A picture of your night

Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory

Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day

Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most

Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most ****** up things with

Day 11 - A picture of something you hate

Day 12 - A picture of something you love

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity

Day 19 - A picture and a letter

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change

Day 25 - A picture of your day

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member

Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile

Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss

Day 31 - A picture of yourself

just some rambling thoughts... again

I find myself with many scatters thoughts lately.. and strangely enough my clarity usually comes in the middle of the night.. truly!! .. it's amazing what the brain does at 3 am! I have such great revelations.. its just too bad I don't have my computer next to me to start letting it flow..

So sadly yesterday I watched our hockey team.. the Vancouver Canucks lose the final game to the Boston Bruins for the Stanley Cup. I have to say though.. watching the Canucks in the last few games, yes.. they had what it would take to win.. but it's all about the execution and of course how the puck bounces.. literally.. game 6 was just a slam.. watching the Canucks get a power play and it ended up 6 against 3.. and they weren't able to get a goal.. I knew then.. well I thought then.. they don't deserve to win.. I mean my goodness.. how easy can this get..and they were still shut out.. sad.. What was worse was seeing the riots.. after game 7, fully expected though.. I mean this is not a shock... there are those few people that will riot for any excuse.. face it.. win or lose.. the riots would have happened...
I had a friend say... you don't go to a family bbq with a molotov cocktail in your backpack.. true.. and then I did ask.. have you met my family.. LOL.. soooo kidding.. but yes.. the mentality is there.. that was there agenda.. just as it was for the Canucks to win the Stanley cup.. sometimes what we wish for or hope for.. or work so long for.. doesn't happen..
Doesn't mean it won't.. just means.. you got to try a little harder.. for a little longer..

Guess I should implement that saying in my life... so much in my life has changed, it's definitely not where I thought I would be.. not saying that I don't like where I am.. I do.. I am with someone who loves me for who I am.. the good, the bad and the ugly.. of course my hope is that this time it is my happily ever after... isn't that what we all want...

Dream a little longer, always reaching for the stars.. one day..

second guessing.. second thoughts..

Amazing how many times a person can think things thru and come to an informed decision.. only to have "life" happen.. and then we start thinking again.. sometimes having those regrets... like in my life.. won't go down the whole rabbit trail here but regrets are a big part of my life.. not sure how much it is for you.. I am constantly second guessing my choices.. now let me make myself clear.. I am in no way a dumb.. or naive person.... if you ask me if I am smart.. I can hold my own.. but I know there is always someone bigger.. better.. and wayyy smarter.. let's just say... I know my place.. anyway... earlier this year I was faced with the daunting task of buying a vehicle..seeing how I killed my explorer.. (see earlier posts.. Dec 22) anyway.. my mindset was truck.. cuz I always wanted a Ford F150 super crew cab...of course 4 x 4 so off I was to shopping... now keep in mind.. I am a woman.. and you would think that shopping would be something I enjoy.. but I don't..I despise it...so off I go with my notebook in hand.. and many many dealerships.. and also private parties.. it finally came down to 2. Well one wasn't willing to deal.. and the other was.. (which was the one I rather have anyhow)
After the mechanical check out.. (off site I might add) negotiations began.. I even brought my dad.. who helped me be the hard ass that I needed to be.. love those salesmen.. they could sell a glass a water to a drowning man!!! but being January.. and they did say.. they would really like to sell a car in January.. LOL.. so I just said.. well you're not selling it to me unless I get it for what I want.. and I come to play hardball.. with that.. he gets his manager... so we neg. and I got a good deal with a warranty..(free I might add for 2 yrs unlimited kms).. that's what I wanted.. for the just in case..cuz that's what I am all about.. the just in case..
so here I am.. only 2 months later.. and yup.. you guessed it..
Truck is in the shop.. finally diagnosed with...head gasket issues.. ah.. thank goodness for the warranty.. ah.. but it doesn't cover it all.. so am I the wiser.. I guess we'll find out... fingers crossed.. sending up my prayers.. hoping this truck lasts me a long long time.. (til I can at least get out of debt!!! )

Still cold..

Had to laugh last week we got about a foot and half of snow.. yet again.. and this was days after I heard on the radio that "Marvin the Marmot" something about spring will be here in 6 weeks. Needless to say while I was shoveling for the third time that DAY..I dreamed of laying on a beach.. anywhere tropical. Sadly the cold whipping wind brought me back to reality! Reality was I better keep on shoveling otherwise I'll be up before 6am digging out my darn vehicle!..
Ah the wonders of Canada....
So here we are already in February, and already dreaming of summer...I was chatting with someone who had just gotten back from Mexico and as we were talking..I had a hard time listening to the story, I was more engrossed with the bronzed tan, and how that must have felt, laying on a beach, listening to the ocean, feeling the sun warm your body. The glistening of oil on your skin, and beads of sweat on the stomach.. my finger circling the rim of the cold glass of ... ya.. reality.. see how fast my mind goes somewhere else....somewhere WARMER.. haha..

Well I did manage to brave the snow.. and headed up for night skiing the other night. I have not skied in a very very long time!.. and surprisingly.. I didn't break anything!.. I did wipe out a few times..and of course that just keeps me more reserved...actually got a bit scared when I felt like I was going to fast..and then when my legs wouldn't do what I wanted them to do.. guess that's the joys of beating your body up.. Don't get me wrong I was very much a tomboy growing up..still not quite all grown up yet.. haha.. I have come to learn or shall we say.. have a respect for speed, for my body hitting the ground.. and for bones to not bend! all things I want to avoid!.. thinking when I got hit by that car, did more damage to the mind then to the body.. cuz still .. I don't full out anything...well..let me rephrase that..hehe.. I won't full out anything that requires speed and not being in some kind of body armour.. (picture me in a knights suit) hahahaa..
anyhoo.. back to skiing.. I did have a good time.. once I went down about 3 times, the fear finally subsided.. and then after a few more times down the hill.. I realized I am not in my twenties anymore.. and don't give me this.. 40 is the new 20.. sure in my mind.. but not while traveling on skis down the side of a mountain doing about 5k an hour.. ROFL!... I will most likely be doing that again.. considering it was only 16 bucks, rentals and lift tickets!.. go figure!
Sadly.. we did not get any pictures.. so that day..the feelings, the excitement, the fear, the joy!.. and the great company.. will be etched in this mind, and in this blog!...

even in what feels like the worst of times.. there are blessings

On December 22, it was snowing pretty much all day.. the scenery was gorgeous..you know the way the snow just sits on the boughs of the trees... breathtaking..


well I had a doctor appointment that day.. and had to head into town.. which was a 30 minute drive. So knowing the weather hasn't been the greatest..decided to head to town a whole hour before the appt. On my way down the hill... I hit ice... and ended up slidding sideways down the hill.. now you may not be the praying type.. but that's the first thing I did.. I wasnt sure how this would end.. and thankful it did end well... I walked away.. although my vehicle which rolled twice, and landed upright!.. and STILL RUNNING.. didn't fair so well.




I am a walking advertising for seatbelts!!! not that I ever rode around without one on.. but this just made me see how important they really are.. I know I would not have walked away from that unscathed.. not with the glass flying everywhere, all I have to say is Thank you God for listening to my prayers.. for GRANTING them to me, and for not taking me out..

Where I come from

Been an interesting week to say the least...had to take a trip to Los Angeles after being away for 6 months..living in a smaller community, gorgeous area.. and a much calmer pace...I did not realize how much of an impact there is on my life..who I am.. I have to say... when I landed I had a bit of an anxiety attack.. and I chalked that up to just being overwhelmed with what was in store for me.. and my fear of how things could go.. I have to say... I am so thankful I flew into Burbank.. and not LAX... when I stepped outside.. it was overcast and gray.. ya.. use to that.. and it did end up raining that day.. but I had to laugh at the driving.. I rented a car..now keep in mind I lived here for 20 years.. and forgot how aggressive one MUST be here.. and I realize that when you are that aggressive...even in driving.. you must be that in your life as well.. there is no kindness.. its rare to find here.. its all about me.. and after me then you first.. its an attitude.. and then I have to ask myself.. was I like that? yes I was more aggressive with driving.. first time back on the fwy I had to tell myself.. stop being so nice.. they won't let you in just cuz you have your blinker on.. just TAKE IT.. cuz ya.. they see your signal on and they race to get in front of you.. where I live now.. they slow down... they wave you on.. and in.. they smile and wave.. here.. ya.. they may smile.. but its while they are waving the finger at ya.. LOL.. no really.. was I blind to this attitude.. do we just get sucked in to our environment..does our enviro control us and our attitudes that much... and at what point do we lose our sensibility..the other thing I noticed is how rude most peeps are..but I guess that goes hand in hand with the attitude..
I know in my small town.. which I absolutely love btw.. it has helped me become who I am today... a much calmer.. peaceful.. dare I say content soul...
I truly love where I live.. and am so looking forward to getting back... snow and all!!