24, 32, 43, 17.. all the same

Have so much in the head.. that one must let it out..and Randy Newman would have so made a song out of this mess.. I have to wonder though.. why some people feel they have the right to say what you should do in your life.. or.. have the audacity to scrutinize the path you were on .. and question your moves.. or the circumstances you were in.. I am where I am.. and now why the hell do I feel like running.. it's no wonder I lived 2000 miles away.. away from the bullshit..and the judgments.. and the condescending remarks..I get that I won't make all the people happy.. all of the time.. but shit people I am here to make me happy..or at least to not feel like my life is shit in "your" eyes.. just tired.. tired of having to explain.... so thinking.. when I was 17 that old motto of "bite me".. will be coming back.. but this time I will add.. harder!
what's funny though.. don't say.. can I give you some advice? when what you really mean is listen to what I say.. and do it..
well... sorry.. advice is great.. but it doesn't mean one must abide in it.. or conform to it.. I am quite capable of making my own damn choices..and my own screw ups.. as you so eloquently pointed out for the MILLIONTH time..
and what works for you.. doesn't mean it will work for me..
as the saying goes.. that's why baskin robbins has 31 flavors!!

On my own... naturally

Ever wonder where this road of life will take you? I often have pondered this..and I have to say.. where I am now.. sure.. I saw myself here.. eventually but not in the circumstances that surround me..I never once pictured my life the way it is.... you ask.. is that wrong.. is it bad... no..it's not.. it's just so different from what I once thought.. but then too.. I am so different from what I once was.. and that too is not a bad thing.. I like who I am.. I like what I stand for.. and for the most part.. like those that surround me....my only issue has been... and will always be... that the peeps in my life.. MUST be honest with me.. I won't have someone in my life if they continue to lie.. and sadly.. we all have someone like that in our life.. question is now.. what do you do with them?
I have had advice.. a friend said to me.. you teach people how to treat you... yeah I get that.. but what if I don't like conflict.. and just knowing that they are lying.. isn't that good enough.. doesn't that protect me..ultimately it is them that must deal with the lie.. it is them that has to face that mirror everyday.. Maybe I am wrong.. maybe there is conflict that must be faced.. things must be said.. and brought out in the open..but then.. I would rather just not have them in my life.. or a close part of it...
anyway.. here I sit.. on homeland.. going to make another big move.. my own place.. yeah.. that's huge.. should be an interesting adventure..
living somewhere I only dreamed about.. in the mountains.. my own space..